i wonder..
Sometimes how life would be with a 3 month old & an almost 2 year old! I get to watch all the Funny things my friends kids do and I can only imagine what kaden would look like,sound like, walk like! Lord how I would love to hear him say "mommy"! His birthday is comin u next month & I am not looking forward to it! I remember last year when we went and we both just sobbed! Not ready for that. We have the 3 collages that my two nephews & niece made for the funeral hanging in our stair way, I stopped the other day while holding lex and was talking to her about her brother,she just stared at his pictures, I wonder if she knows him?I can only hope he is with her daily! Soetimes I wonder when she stairs off into space smiling if she's looking at him. One can only hope right?! I have been thinking a lot lately about someone I know who has lost a loved one, they drew closer to GOD and are lliving through his word. I wonder how people do that! How are yyou not angry at god for taking your loved one? Why can't I get to that point? I miss my boy & wish he could be here to cuddle with me & lexie! :\
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Sarah,
I often wonder the same thing about individuals that find God after they have suffered a loss like we have. I'm still so angry at God 3 years out that I don't think I'd ever be able to have Him back in my life, but then again that's just me. Everyone is different.
When you said that Lex stares off into space and you wonder if she can see Kaden, I wouldn't doubt it if she could. My stepsister who was 7 (I think) at the time of Josh and Maddie's death is able to see them. She tells my step mom all the time what they are doing and that they are happy. She actually told my stepmom that Maddie is walking now. When my stepmom told me that story I burst out sobbing in the middle of my dad's living room.
Rest assured that Kaden, Maddie, and Josh are keeping an eye on your precious little girl.
((hugs)0
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