Andrew..

well in the spirit of valentines day being yesterday I suppose I will write about my love today..

I've been told so many times that people didn't know how me and Andrew have made it through this heartache. It has def. been the hardest most trying time in our marriage but I cannot imagine not being with him. He is simply the only person that knows how bad my heart aches! He knows how I feel without me having to say anything. Simply a look and he knows! I wasn't there when Kaden's accident happened and Andrew was. I don't and NEVER will blame Andrew for what happened. it was one thing, an accident, I know that Andrew would give his life to have been able to react 2 seconds faster! I know it's something that haunts him on a daily basis and I don't want to contribute to all the pain I already know he is feeling! I know he blames himself, I know that he hates what happened, I want to be the one that he can turn to just like he is for me! I mean I have so many people that are there for me and I appreciate it all so much but like I said Andrew is the only person that gets it 110% ! My love for Andrew hasn't changed one bit, if anything it has grown!! I can remember sobbing in the hospital sitting on the floor with me, like I've said so many times it is all ingrained in my head like it just happened!! It makes me sick sometimes but it's the reality of the situation. I love Andrew, I will always love Andrew and no matter what anyone says he will always be the one I turn to in my time of need (well him and maybe my mom! lol)!! Andrew was an awesome daddy to Kaden and is an awesome daddy to Lexie, I am truly blessed to have such an amazing man in my life!!! I LOVE YOU ANDREW ROBERT!!!! <3 <3